Keep the CARD

Make It Stand Out.

Each morning I pull a card from my cute little deck of affirmations. I always appreciate a friendly reminder to be kind, give more, get off my ass and most importantly be present.  I’ve been doing this ritual for 5 years now and it never gets old. And sometimes if I’m not feeling the card’s message I even go as far as to put it back and draw again. Don’t judge.  You do it too.

For the past 5 years, I’ve found myself in a place of silence.  I like to refer to myself as being mute. Yep…I kept my thoughts locked deep inside and let the world circle around me.  Definitely NOT because I didn’t have much to say, but more so I was worried about the repercussions and personal risks that could/would occur if I spoke up.  What would people think? How would I be viewed? What if no one “liked” my post. OMG, what if no one followed me?

The reality was that I was so caught up in what others would think of me that I lost the influential woman I was. It was time that I fought back and kicked the self-chatter beast to the curb.

Control.  It’s always about control.  As a successful business woman, ok mom, pretty awesome wife everything must be planned to the tee with no room for hiccups, let alone judgment from other women who are rockin’ this life.  “Keeping up with the Jones” allows very little room for vulnerability, let’s be real.

I became selfish.

My business became MY gift.

My story of survival became MY celebration.

My love story only filled MY heart.

My passion for love and peace only resonated in MY home.

All because of fear.

Today I pulled my card (Kris Carr- Crazysexy Love Notes).

It read:

Something bigger is on the way.

Allow your vision to expand, and be open to the form it takes.

You may discover that you were dreaming too small or that what seemed like

An obstacle is actually pointing you in a better direction.

The universe always has your back.

In January, I did what everyone does, I made a New Year’s resolution. I committed to sharing the real raw version of me. Clear of expectations. Or fear. I know what you are thinking.  “Does she realize it’s March and her blog is just getting started?” See above. I like to be in control and change isn’t always my best friend.

Anyways…

My story is sacred. And the message is clear. I have a lifetime ahead of me to radiate peace, love and hope into those who want to listen…and those who don’t, so be it.  The universe always has my back and it’s time that I embrace her beauty and rock this life to it’s fullest